There’s a passage in the Bible, in Corinthians, where the apostle Paul talks about “a thorn in the flesh“. I have heard it said that this is some kind of physical ailment, but it’s not specific as to what it is exactly. I have a thorn in the flesh, of sorts, that I have not told too many people about, but today I will be stepping out of my comfort zone and revealing it in this blog.
This thorn in my flesh, is something that causes me sorrow, when I observe other people suffering from the same delusion as I do. My issue is this, when I look into a mirror, I have rarely been happy with the person that I see, “The man staring back from the glass”.
I’ve seen a man whose skin is too dark, who’s too fat, or who’s not good looking enough. A guy who’s not tall enough, and whose teeth are not white enough, and has an awful smile. I know that the way I perceive myself is distorted, but it has been my thorn for a while. And oddly enough, as I mentioned above, I know that other people, many times, feel the same way about themselves; however, I know that they shouldn’t, and I also know that I shouldn’t.
And this bring me to something that we have done in the Master Key Master Mind Alliance course. Og Mandino, has written a book, that many of you may have heard of called The Greatest Salesman in the World, and we have been reading “The Scrolls” that begin in chapter 8. We are to read a scroll, three times a day, for thirty days, starting with chapter one. Right now we are on scroll four, and we’ve been reading this scroll now for ten days, and it’s slowly disintegrating my thorn.
If you doubt that affirmations work, and that they have no effect on a person, I beg to differ. From The Scroll Marked IV, the following lines have stuck in my mind. Many of these things I have never thought about, but should have realized. I’ve felt this for others; however, I never really applied them to myself. These are snippet’s from The Scroll Marked IV that speak to me.
I am nature’s greatest miracle.
Since the beginning of time never has there been another with my mind, my heart, my eyes, my ears, my hands, my hair, my mouth. None that came before, none that live today, and none that come tomorrow can walk and talk and move and think exactly like me. All men are my brothers yet I am different from each. I am a unique creature.
None can duplicate my brush strokes, none can make my chisel marks, none can duplicate my handwriting, none can produce my child…
And most of all, this next phrase has embedded in my psyche:
I am a unique creature of nature.
I am not on this earth by chance. I am here for a purpose and that purpose is to grow into a mountain, not to shrink to a grain of sand. Henceforth will I apply all my efforts to become the highest mountain of all and I strain my potential until it cries for mercy.
In addition, Mark Januszewski, during a few conference calls has said, “The whole is greater than the sum of the parts”, and hearing that several times, and reading this month’s scroll, have caused something in my subconscious to click. It’s not the color of my skin, my weight, my looks, my stature, my teeth, or my smile, that make me who I am, those are just the parts; the unique parts. I am unique, and I will now look at the whole Ed, not the individual parts of Ed. (And no, I don’t make it a habit to speak in third person )
I am nature’s (God’s) greatest miracle, and since taking the MKMMA course, I have bettered myself in many ways, and this particular change in me was unexpected, but I’m grateful for it. Please, if you ever feel about yourself, as I described my feelings above, remember that you are God’s greatest miracle, and He loves you. I love you too.
I will end this post with a video. I saw this video months ago, and it made me cry. I felt bad for the women in the video who had a skewed image of themselves, and at the time I never realized that I was doing the same thing to myself. I will never see myself the same way after taking Mark J’s, MKMMA course. From now on, I will see the whole Ed, and quit focusing on my individual parts, because those parts include something that I am very proud of, and that’s my heart, and my love for others.